I am still alive

The twins are almost two weeks old and honestly I am glad those weeks are past. I don't wish away the newborn stage but I do wish away the way my body feels those first few weeks of recovering. I can honestly say that now I am feeling a whole lot better. I have energy again! I think because I felt so immobile the last 3 months of pregnancy I have forgotten how it feels to feel normal, you know bend over, put on shoes and socks with out assistance, wipe up messes...I can be mom again and the kids are loving that.

I took the boys in for there 1st check up(with my moms help and Brynlees) and both boys lost some weight but not much. Now Kessler is weighing more than Kolby. Both boys are eating well and sleeping great. In fact they have been going to bed around 10:30pm and sleeping until 3am to eat and back to sleep till about 7am. I think that is one of the blessings I get for carrying them so long in my tummy. Kessler is my relaxed baby, he mostly moans and makes sweet noises to show that he is content. Kolby is a fighter, he attacks the bottle to eat and arches his back all the time. They both resemble the brother they look alike. Ryker was a lot like Kolby as a baby and looks like him and Kessler looks a lot like Conner did and acts like he did. It is fun to watch that.

Today I got ready and went to sacrament meeting, it has been 3 weeks since I have been to church. It felt so good to feel and look normal and feel the spirit. Conner gave a talk for the primary program and I didn't want to miss it. Courtney came over and sat with the boys so I could go. Life is crazy and sometimes i want to cry but I wouldn't change a thing. I have 5 kids!!!!